Tuesday, February 19, 2008




so ready for summer! I can't stand it anymore.... seriously- when I walk outside and it's a whopping 28 degrees- I want to punch a baby.

Thankfully- I don't know anyone who is currently with child.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008





such a douche
but i love it

Thursday, February 7, 2008

UPDATE: I am not a depressed headcase... I swear.


Tuesday:

Tuesday was pretty interesting. I woke up- immediately realizing what month it was (My brother who passed away in September has a birthday on the 22nd of this month), and almost immediately after that was when I started to feel a little upset. I had class at 11:00-- which is a worthless event in and of itself (the class is bullshit), came home, and took a MUCH NEEDED nap. When I woke up- I had several text messages requesting my appearance at the bars... Mardi Gras.

Next thing I know I'm in the shower blaring a Britney song and getting ready to go. After that, I'm on my way to get the boys. On my way, I noticed that the snow was coming down pretty hard (this was about 10:00 P.M.). Not paying much attention to that situation- I stopped off at a friends house, had a couple of drinks and left again; still- the snow was coming down pretty hard. As soon as I had reached my second to last destination- it was already two inches deep (not a big deal, right?). I packed everyone in my car, drove to the bars, and had a good night. That is... until they called LAST CALL and we went outside to find six inches of fresh powder covering the streets of Lawrence (and my car). Being the driver means you have to drop people off! How disappointing... What's worse is I had my roommate with me and, since my apartment is closest to the bars, he was the first to be dropped off! Uhg... whatever- it's not a big deal. I didn't get in an accident- if that's what you were thinking. Just giving you the little update on Tuesday night.

Wednesday:

SNOW DAY! Can you fucking beleive it? This University never EVER, EVER cancels class... and they called a fucking snow day. I was so shocked- it's not even funny. Because it was snowing so much- I stayed at a friends house; slept in til' 10:00, and headed back to my apartment to do some more sleeping. By the time I had woken up at 2:30- the roads were clear! So, realizing that I had spent around $50.00 at the bars the night before, I knew I had to make my way to O.P. and grab some dough from my parents (fresh out after that little adventure).

Then I came home, took a shower- and went to sleep again! It's so interesting, my life- right?

Currently- I am sitting on campus at a univeristy computer (which so convienently sports a label stating how I paid for the machine) getting ready to go into my 11:00 A.M. BULLSHIT class and loving life.

Ain't it a bitch, though?

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

When certain feelings or emotions collide with one another- the result doesn't always appear to be happy. I'm lost. I'm so scared- and alone... and I know this- and it hurts. But I'm wading... taking on water and I'm about to sink.

My mother and I haven't spoken in a month. My brother died just this past September- and I'm just now feeling the shock.


My method is in my smile... and as long as I'm doing that- as long as I keep smiling... I'll be fine.

Monday, February 4, 2008

That's how you get em' girl!

Haha- Love that song...

ANYWAY- this week has been pretty interesting. I am tired- sick of school, the snow- and totally ready for summer.

Hope you guys are doin' good...
sure as hell know I am.