When certain feelings or emotions collide with one another- the result doesn't always appear to be happy. I'm lost. I'm so scared- and alone... and I know this- and it hurts. But I'm wading... taking on water and I'm about to sink.

My mother and I haven't spoken in a month. My brother died just this past September- and I'm just now feeling the shock.


My method is in my smile... and as long as I'm doing that- as long as I keep smiling... I'll be fine.