I wish I had the ability to randomly hook up like a lot of other guys do.

Many of you know about my opposition to promiscuity when it comes to sex. Sometimes, however, I do wish I were less inhibited and had the ability to let loose. I, like every other man (gay or straight) am a slave to constant sexual desire. My personal beliefs, however, prevent me from satisfying my urges. On the one hand I realize that I'm young, athletic, and entitled to a bit of fun. On the other, though, I am extremely terrified of contracting a disease, or building a bad reputation.

What can I do? Absolutely nothing.

My debt situation is certainly coming back to haunt me. I'm about $2500 in and my only income comes from my parents. What am I going to do? Sure, if I ask them- they will take care of it- but it's so irresponsible and unfair on my end.

I've recently started to see a shrink. For a huge chunk of my life I was completely against the idea of "seeing someone."
It's been a positive though. He is helping me to identify my impulse at the start- and curb it so it doesn't turn into a regrettable decision.
He also doesn't believe that I'm at the point in my life where I can make a definite decision regarding my sexuality. He beleives that I need to have more experiences in order to determine that. I'm not sure if I agree with him... sometimes.
He brings up some really good points.

Anyway- I guess that should satisfy my committment to blogging for now.
I hope you all have a good week.

CAM